"I need high prayers to breathe through And I need to shine like I used to And I know that I'm not supposed To be for nothing..." -Cree Summer, "Deliciously Down" - Street Faerie

This week has gone by so fast, yet been so long all at the same time....I can't remember a week where I have felt so lost and so found all at the same time. A lot of things are coming into line for me right now...amidst my own personal chaos and lack of free time. I need a serious mental day. Its funny how things can be so perfect and so right for a person, just as they are standing in the eye of a storm,..knowing that both the worst and the best is yet to come...because, now, you can see it.

Hot day, cool smoothie,....extreme dating is fun. :-) 

To take a page from my friend's blog,....here is my haiku of the day:

Pay Me you requested it the item I gave freely money I dont have do you plan on paying me?

This week is a page out of the broke diaries for me. Clients that do not pay are not helping me NOT dip into my savings.

So,..I rush out of work to run errands on my little tiny itty bity 30 minute lunch break today. Its all sunny and 80 degrees out side and I kind of get excited about driving with the windows down for a change. I go to the bank, grab a caramel frappe (my version of midday coffee) and head back to work. There I am at the stop light waiting for green, minding my business and Mr. Toyota Tacoma in front of me keeps looking back at me in his rear view mirror....and he keeps making these hand gestures close to his chest. After a few seconds of watching this man make grabbing gestures with his hands, I finally figure out he is trying to say something to me. The light turns green and he is still looking at me through the rearview....I beep my horn and it was like he awoke from some hormone induced daydream and put his foot on the gas and drove off. Maaan! keep your eye on the red light instead of trying to tell me that the twins are big! damn!

So, what do you call it when you meet someone for brunch on a bright warm sunny Sunday morning and you don't leave their company until almost 8pm that evening? Extreme dating. Its the new thing I hear. Forget the days of the quick bite to eat, a little conversation and off you go! No! Why do that when you can get to know 10 times more information within one little 24 hour period. Make a day of it. That is what they do on those reality dating shows - they make a day of it. We could not decide what to call it, so "officially" it was just a get together, meeting... One moment I was having brunch, the next I was having dinner,...with a very satisfying day in good company in between. :-) I think I really like extreme dating.

Its 1:36am,...do you know where your web designer is? .............this is what happens when you let procrastination creep in.

" My soul wants to go one way But my heart and mind playing a tug of war with me baby"

-"Tug of War," Nikka Costa

I must say, it snuck (is that a word??) up on me. I did not see it coming,...And the next thing I know, its moved in, unpacked and has made its self comfortable on my couch. What am I talking about here folks? PROCRASTINATION. Yep, procrastination. Over the past six months, I have become the worlds official #1 procrastinator, and I hate it. I truly truly hate it. I mean, I was the one that used to arrive 15 minutes early. I was the one that used to stay a constant week ahead of my responsibilities at work. I was the one that kept all the receipts and filed taxes on time (well I still do that, refund baby!) and the one that just had it all together, lists, the daytime organizer calendar all planned out....And now? Now? Well I am procrastinating as I write THIS! Its sad. Sad, sad, sad.

" Trouble...Trouble, trouble, trouble, trouble Trouble been doggin' my soul since the day I was born Worry...Worry, worry, worry, worry Worry just will not seem to leave my mind alone We'll I've been...saved by a woman I've been...saved by a woman I've been...saved by a woman She won't let me go...She won't let me go now" -"Trouble", Ray Lamontagne

...no, literally,..rainy days are not good for my behind. On rainy days I tend to eat heavier foods, like "comfort foods" and I get a bit sluggish and long for the warmth of my bed all day...my arse is really dragging the ground today. I am afraid I might have holes in my pants... So, I am watching Alias Last Wednesday (episode: Nightingale) and they played this song at the end of the episode. Well the song immediately grabbed my attention and my ears. I heard a voice like no other and the pain in the song was heavy. So, knowing that the web can provide you with just about everything except a cure for AIDS, I went online to an Alias fan site to see if I could find the artist and title of a song. I have done this before with a song from an episode of Alias and it proved to be rewarding. I found a song that I wanted for over 4 years and was looking for it. Because I did not know the band nor even a maybe title for the song, no one seemed to be able to tell me anything about the song. The only thing I knew about the song, other than the fact that I had heard it in a coke commercial a few years back; was that the chorus sounded like the singer was saying "baby..." something, (come to find out she was saying "Fade Into You, but that is a story for a different date). Long story shorter, I found out that my latest music jewel of a find was called "Trouble" and it was by a guy (with a fascinating life story I might add), called Ray Lamontagne. I found it, bought it on iTunes and then bought his whole record....now my life is once again complete, (until the next song I become obsessed with comes along). I do that, find a song or an artist, love one of their songs and then spend the next month or so completely wrapped up in it...obsessed with it....on constant rotation with it...its bad. "Trouble" just speaks to me. Its a melancholy song about feeling lost and found and lost again (but this time, lost in someone). I just love it. The rest of his album (of the same name as the single) is great also. They played another one of his songs, "Shelter" on another recent episode of Alias as well....sounds like someone on the Alias staff might be obsessed too... :-)

So this is not my first blog, but it is the first blog I have set up that I am actively going to try and keep up. There is something about blogging that I like...just have not figured out how to put it in words quite yet,...we will see. I am in the process of doing some research on minorities and blogs. This has been an ongoing personal research project of mine for the last three years. Why so long? Because it has taken that long for enough of "us" to get hip to this new form of expression and information sharing to have a decent number of people I can query about their blogging experiences. If you are a minority (African, African American, Latino, Asian, etc.) and you would like to participate in my research by filling out a small questionnaire (15 minutes tops!-promise!); then please, drop me a line . I will then reply to you with the questionnaire and directions. You fill it out and return it to me via email...real simple! Once I have enough people I will begin to post my results and findings on this blog.